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.Looking more closely at one of the buildings, I realized that what I saw was the back of the high school which I had never seen from that side.I was just approaching the gate which, to my surprise, was open; the entrance hall was lit.I walked in and found myself on the red carpet of the passage.I hoped to be able to slip through unob- sen'ed and come out through the front gate, thus taking a splendid short cut.I remembered that at that late hour there might be, in Professor Arendt's classroom, one of the voluntary classes which in winter were always held in the late evenings and to which we all flocked, fired by the enthusiasm for art which that excellent teacher had awakened in us.A small group of industrious pupils was almost lost in the large dark hall on whose walls the enormous shadows of our heads broke abruptly, thrown by the light of two small candles set in bottles.To be truthful, we did not draw very much during these classes and the professor was not very exacting.Some boys brought cushions from home and stretched themselves out on benches for a short nap.Only the most diligent of us gathered around the candle, in the golden circle of its light.We usually had to wait a long while for the professor's arrival, filling the time with sleepy conversation.At last the door from his room would open and he would enter – short, bearded, given to esoteric smiles and discreet silences and exuding an aroma of secrecy.He shut the door of his study carefully behind him: through it for a brief moment we could see over his head a crowd of plaster shadows, the classical fragments of suffering.Niobides, Danaides, and Tantalides, the whole sad and sterile Olympus, wilting for years on end in that plastercast museum.The light in his room was opaque even in daytime, thick from the dreams of plastercast heads, from empty looks, ashen profiles, and meditations dissolving into nothingness.We liked to listen sometimes in front of that door – listen to the silence laden with the sighs and whispers of the crumbling gods withering in the boredom and monotony of their twilight.The professor walked with great dignity and unction up and down among the half-empty benches on which, in small groups, we were drawing amidst the grey reflections of a winter night.Everything was 62 63THE STREET OF CROCODILES CINNAMON SHOPS quiet and cosy.Some of my classmates were asleep.The candles were burning low in their bottles.The professor delved into a deep book- case, full of old folios, unfashionable engravings, woodcuts, and prints.He showed us, with his esoteric gestures, old lithographs of night landscapes, of tree clumps in moonlight, of avenues in wintry parks outlined black on the white moonlit background.Amidst sleepy talk, time passed unnoticed.It ran by unevenly, as if making knots in the passage of hours, swallowing somewhere whole empty periods.Without transition, our whole gang found ourselves on the way home long after midnight on the garden path white with snow, flanked by the black, dry thicket of bushes.We walked alongside that hairy rim of darkness, brushing against the furry bushes, their lower branches snapping under our feet in the bright night, in a false milky brightness.The diffuse whiteness of light filtered by the snow, by the pale air, by the milky space, was like the grey paper of an engraving on which the thick bushes corresponded to the deep black lines of decoration.The night was copying now, at that late hour, the nightly landscapes of Professor Arendt's engravings, re-enacting his fantasies.In the black thickets of the park, in the hairy coat of bushes, in the mass of crusty twigs there were nooks, niches, nests of deepest fluffy blackness, full of confusion, secret gestures, conniving looks.It was warm and quiet there.We sat on the soft snow in our heavy coats, cracking hazelnuts of which there was a profusion in that springlike winter.Through the copse, weasels wandered silently, martens and ichneumons, furry, ferreting elongated animals on short legs, stinking of sheepskin.We suspected that among them were the exhibits from the school cabinets which, although degutted and moulting, felt on that white night in their empty bowels the voice of the eternal instinct, the mating urge, and returned to the thickets for short moments of illusory life.But slowly the phosphorescence of the springlike snow became dulled: it vanished then, giving way to a thick black darkness preceding dawn.Some of us fell asleep in the warm snow, others went groping in the dark for the doors of their houses and walked blindly into the sleep of their parents and brothers, into a continuation of deep snoring which caught up with them on their late return.These nightly drawing sessions held a secret charm for me, so that now I could not forgo the opportunity of looking for a moment into the an room.I decided, however, that I would not stop for more than a little while.But walking up the back stairs, their cedar wood resounding under my steps, I realized that I was in a wing of the school building completely unknown to me.Not even a murmur interrupted the solemn silence.The passages were broader in this wing, covered with a thick carpet and most elegant.Small, darkly glowing lamps were hung at each corner.Turning the first of these, I found myself in an even wider, more sumptuous hall.In one of its walls there was a wide glass arcade leading to the interior of an apartment.I could see a long enfilade of rooms, furnished with great magnificence.The eye wandered over silk hangings, gilded mirrors, costly furniture, and crystal chandeliers and into the velvety softness of the luxurious interiors, shimmering with lights, entangled garlands, and budding flowers.The profound stillness of these empty rooms was filled with the secret glances exchanged by mirrors and the panic of friezes running high along the walls and disappearing into the stucco of the white ceilings.I faced all that magnificence with admiration and awe, guessing that my nightly escapade had brought me unexpectedly into the head- master's wing, to his private apartment.I stood there with a beating heart, rooted to the spot by curiosity, ready to escape at the slightest noise.How would I justify, if surprised, that nocturnal visit, that impudent prying? In one of those deep plush armchairs there might sit, unobserved and still, the young daughter of the headmaster.She might lift her eyes to mine – black, sibylline, quiet eyes, the gaze of which none could hold.But to retreat halfway, not having carried through the plan I had, would be cowardly.Besides, deep silence reigned in those magnificent interiors, lit by the hazy light of an undefined hour.Through the arcades of the passage, I saw on the far side of the living room a large glass door leading to the terrace.It was so still everywhere that I felt suddenly emboldened.It did not strike me as too risky to walk down the short steps leading to the level of the living room, to take a few quick steps across the large, costly carpet and to find myself on the terrace from which I could get back without any difficulty to the familiar street.This is what I did.When I found myself on the parquet floor under the potted palms that reached up to the frieze of the ceiling, I noticed that now I really was on neutral ground, because the living room did not have a front wall.It was a kind of large loggia, connected by a 64 65THE S'T'REET OF CROCODILES CINNAMON SHOPS few steps with a city square, an enclosed part of the square, because some of the garden furniture stood directly on the pavement.I ran down the short flight of stone steps and found myself at street level once more
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